Just venting

and yeah i am smarter than a lot of you combined, no, i am not being arrogant, so spare me the part where you give me your opinions unless asked for. I have wanted to say this sometimes, but do not know what stopped me, is it the tone of the sentence? What am I afraid of? That some prick is going to call me rude, that I am arrogant or bad tempered? What is it that makes me not say things to people and endure all the statements people make about me? What is this quality in each one of us that makes us polite, sometimes while suppressing our own opinions and feelings? Are there not enough of us who give kindness its place in society? Yet, why is the society always portrayed as being so uncivil, and mean.. I distinctly remember reading that Delhi is one of the most impolite cities and that to get directions out of a person on the road is impossible, leave alone the countless number of bad elements that make it unsafe for a woman, and am sure I can add man also to that sentence, to walk the streets. Dil missing from Dilli is what I actually read.. Society at large apart, little things in life are really starting to get me, and I sometimes wonder why I have to be nice to people, but for the stress that being unpleasant to someone puts on me. If I yell at someone chances are I am suffering more than the person yelled at, I don't like confrontations, I believe in people,I take whatever they say to be true, something about face value; call me naive, call me foolish, or call me whatever, I like people in my life to own up to what they do or say, I like to impose standards, coz that's what they get from me. If on some occasions they don't and I somehow fail in my duty, one can by and large expect an apology from me. Someone please explain me why I shouldn't expect reciprocity? or for that matter why am I constantly told not to expect anything from relationships within or outside of the family? When did we all start being so lenient that people think they can do anything and get away with it? I wrote about this before and I say it again, this episode in The West Wing put it very well: "more and more we have come to expect less and less of each other". I hope I am quoting it right.

Everyone I know likes to be kind and nice and right most of the times atleast, I even know people that say they are so respectful of these concepts such as individuality, space, privacy, respect, live and let live, etc etc..so when they are so nice and have such high standards in life, why am I not supposed to hold them to a higher standard; and please don't answer this, it's a rhetorical question; oh you know, you are smart too..only I am a little smarter than you, kidding..