Hi, there is no need for pleasantries here as you must be well already, so no need to ask you how you are..also, there's no need to tell you how I am coz I believe you already know, infact you are the reason I am the way I am. Don't think that I am being rude, I have a lot of faith in you. I like you and for the most part, the world that you created. Let's just say that all the 27years and 10months I have lived was a seminar you held and now is the time for a Q&A session that every speaker allows after he/she is done talking. I am not saying you are done talking, think of this as a series of lectures and this is a session post your lecture number one. First of all let me start by telling you how kind and all encompassing and beautiful, graceful, intelligent, loving you are. I can add hundreds of thousands of adjectives here, i will just be stating the obvious. You and I both know how powerful you are. You are this humongous ball of energy that has been driving this world from the days of a life less planet and then may be water and then single celled animals to todays advanced beings, yet you tirelessly drive this world and I believe you will keep doing so till the times comes...2012 or whenever it may be. Life has come a long way God and you have worked so well, you are definitely a genius. You brought solace to people since time immemorial, no matter what form they saw you in. You made miracles possible. So, dear God, please tell me why the world has to be bad too at the same time.. A little bad I don't mind, I am sure I am bad to some extent too. I can even make peace with the reptiles and other terrible looking creatures you made. If at this moment you are thinking I am ugly too, I totally understand. I reap what I sow. May be a list of questions will make it easy for me to get my thoughts straight. You don't need a list, you are smart. I am not. At times when I was indeed smart or intelligent, I had to work at it, I had to earn it and it was the most wonderful feeling ever.
1. Why did you give cancer? It's just such a terrible way to die, little children, poor, rich, kind, cruel.no body deserves it. Apart from Cancer, why are there ugly and deadly diseases on earth?
2. Why are some people always unlucky, like Karna from the Maha Bharat, or like the South African cricket team?ofcourse the ones i mentioned here atleast won't die of poverty or lack of shelter like some people born into utter, dismal poverty, bad health, loneliness etc.
3.Is it true that one who suffers is just paying for what he/she did in his earlier lives? Will a terrorist or some rich guy that killed poor homeless people with his BMW suffer the same in their next life?Is Hitler that killed 6million jews suffering?
4.Every time I or anyone else have been talking to you, have you listened to and processed every word of ours? How hard is it to listen to the prayers of all the God-believing people on this planet?
5. I read in a spiritual magazine that every thing I do, every act, every inhalation and exhalation, every thought I get, good or bad is driven by you. I was told that I need to surrender to you and I have, I love that feeling of surrendering to true love, Godliness. But then the Geeta says I'll pay for each bad thing I do, if I did that bad thing under your instructions, why did you make me do it in the first place? So my question is: Is my life my doing or yours? To what extent am I responsible for my own fate?
6. You also said in the Geeta that I should only bother about putting my efforts into something and leave the results to you. If I am putting my efforts in something to get a certain result, like for example, I am typing this letter on my computer, and I expect the letters to show up on the monitor..I can't help but expect my effort in typing to translate into letters on screen...so how do I achieve what you said. Also, as long as I have a thinking mind, will I not expect something or the other?
7. Do you really fry bad people in hot oil when they get to hell?
8. Is it possible for people to make amends in this very life or do we have to wait?
9. When asked why she got five husbands, you reminded Draupadi that she asked for it. Do you decide what I get or what I don't or should I ask?
10. Why do the rich become rich, the poor become poor and the middle class left to rut?
11. Why do some people have to work 100times harder for an easy thing that everyone else seems to get in one shot?
12. Why is there drought? Sure, it is man's fault but won't you give some rain?
13. Why do people kill and slay others?
14. I also don't know why I lost my job, and why I feel this much resentment all the while I am trying to be a happy person. But I am not bold enough to hear your answer on that. I dare not know what I have done. I will try be happy to just have this life, family, friends, food and shelter. But let's say I had an accomplice in all I did, will he/she be given the same treatment as me?
15. Will I ever get a job I love?
16. Will you be mad at me for having asked these questions?
Also, I could have written a much better letter, you know...I think writing is one of my strengths, if ever there is a next time, I will try and do a better job in terms of vocab. I shall have a list of things prepared before I start writing, coz this letter is just all over the place.
Lastly, I trust you to have a sense of humor, so you won't mind all this non-sense, do you?
Yours Sincerely,
M
